The Emancipating 2020 Election
I remember looking at the ball drop and seeing the year 2020 in bright lights on television. I thought to myself, “Wow a whole new decade. I wonder what will happen this year?” Just as the anxiety was making its way to my gut I quickly brushed that thought off by thinking, “Girl, it’s just another year.” Little did I know it would be the year that would effectively bring out the woman inside me that I did not know existed.
Ok, so let me give you an introduction to who I used to be so you can understand where we are headed in this article. I am a black Haitian American who was born in Brooklyn, New York. I was brought up in a strict God-fearing Haitian household. No matter how strict it was I would still find a way to do my dirt. You can’t expect Americans to sit back and listen all the time. I wasn’t any worse than any other kid, but I didn’t get the straight “As” like I should’ve and sneaking out to meet boys was my favorite pass time.
By the time I was 23 I knew I had to get my life in order or else I would be destined to live at my parent’s house for the rest of my life. I went to trade school and got my Practical Nursing License when I was 26. I worked in many different nursing facilities and by 2018 I transitioned to Registered Nurse by attaining my associates degree in nursing.
By 2019 life was so good that I didn’t care too much about the conflicts that were going on in the media or politically. I didn’t realize it then, but I would later thank President Trump for the convenience of ignorance. I mostly believed what the media headlines would say.
Every day since 2016 the news would make sure to remind me in some way that President Trump was racist. “Good people on both sides” was one of their usual bread and butter.
The constant mainstream narrative really made me believe that Donald Trump was out there in his first term doing racial things and inciting race wars every chance he got. White people were emboldened because of him, and I had to be careful because any day now they could come and attack me. They were mad at the 8 years of Obama so now they had a free pass to be as racist as possible.
I am astonished as I am writing this that I actually believed all of that. It didn’t help that I was also working at a job that really did have issues with discrimination. Let me just say that I don’t like making those accusations, but here is a quick description. The nursing home I worked at was in the suburbs and 90% white between residents and staff. Some of the residents were not shy about using the N word.
That didn’t bother me. What bothered me was the constant surprise that I wasn’t a certified nursing assistant. As if my skin color was an intellectual disability. I spent five years at a facility feeling like many of the white people there thought they were superior to me. It was conflicting because I also had some great relationships with a few white co-workers. However, management was another story.
When I started working at that place I had to “prove myself” as a competent black nurse. I would get accused of being a culprit in events that took place when I wasn’t even in the building. I was constantly questioned and by the time I transitioned into a Registered Nurse, they doubled down on the harassment. There was an even bigger shock that I was a Registered Nurse.
I was left out of important meetings, and I knew it was time for me to go when I put in an application for supervisor and didn’t get interviewed before they gave it to another person who didn’t have my qualifications. I am going to show confidence for a moment. I am a caring nurse who utilizes her knowledge and skills to provide the best quality of care for all my patients no matter where I am working. So yes, I was better qualified for the position.
You can only imagine the anger it left in my heart for white people. I was bitter and went on a path of darkness. Those 5 years were the angriest of my life so when a person said Donald Trump was racist my response was “They all are!” This was still conflicting for me because I knew deep down that was not true. It was just a response out of anger.
It wasn’t that I hated white people, but I had a barrier up for a long time. It left me in a place of ideology with being black. I would think things like “blacks are the true people of God”. I looked at the bible as if it was whitewashed. White Jesus was an issue for me.
I believed in God but everything I learned as a child about God and the bible was now a problem for me. To be honest a thought like “Blacks are the true people of God” is not rooted in the Lord and while I am writing this, I am having a strong realization that something else entered my heart. You cannot have ideology and God at the same time. I have to say thank you to the Lord right now because I didn’t realize that when I turned my back on Him, He was still fighting for me, and I am so grateful He won and snatched me back into His arms.
So, imagine having all of this going on in your life, mind and heart, how can you interpret the lies in the news. The mainstream media knows this, and they play on black people’s emotions every chance they get. They show us footage without full stories and release us into the streets to cause the chaos they want. They use the word Racism as the string, and we are the puppets. The sooner black people realize this, the sooner they will be way better off.
By the beginning of 2019 I left that environment. I started working at a psych facility and it took me 4 months to start having real conversations with my white co-workers. This facility was different. We were all treated as equals. They either hated or loved the nursing department equally. I was around many down to earth people, and I didn’t have to “prove myself” to anyone. I loved my job which was something I never thought I would say about any job. Suddenly my shoulders and neck weren’t so tight anymore and I was free or so I thought.
So, we are back at the beginning of 2020, and I am enjoying life. Gas prices were so good I picked up a second car. I had heard there was some virus in China that was giving a terrible pneumonia. I figured it might make its way here, but viruses usually become less fatal the more they circulate, so I didn’t give it a second thought.
Then on January 3rd, 2020, President Trump ordered a drone strike to kill to General Qasem Soleimani of Iran and we were headed to World War 3. Every media outlet was screaming about this story even pointless outlets like The Shade Room on Instagram. I remember everyone being so scared about this World War 3, but I don’t know what came over me. Maybe it was because they had just tried to impeach him the year before or the constant hearing of his name on the news. I was over it. I just felt like we should have been over the fact that Donald Trump was president by 2020. Why were people still so worked up over his name?
I then decided to ask a co-worker friend of mine, who is from Iraq, about this World War 3 that we were going into. He assured me that no such thing was happening. He went as far as telling me that if this was the one thing Donald Trump did in his presidency, it would be enough for him to be considered the best president.
I asked myself, “Why would the media lie like that with something so serious?” As the weeks went on the news of World War 3 ended. I guess it was to make space for the headline of all headlines that would change the very fabric of reality. The Wuhan Coronavirus had made it to the United States of America. I still was not making a big deal about it. I figured it would be like when we had that Ebola scare and nothing else happened.
They allowed me to put my guard down when Nancy Pelosi went to China town to hang out with Asians because of the xenophobic remarks of Donald Trump calling it the Chinese Coronavirus. He was causing Asian hate. Once again, I was wondering what was up with everyone, I mean the virus was first found in China.
However, on March 16, 2020, I heard the words that would cause me great confusion and strife, “Two weeks to slow the spread”
What the hell did that even mean? Remember I am a Registered Nurse who was educated and knew that no such thing existed. There is no slowing the spread because people will not just stay home and not to mention we would end up getting sick as soon as we returned to work anyway. Like children returning to school from summer break. Everyone comes home with runny noses.
Then two weeks turned into “We’re just going to do what we want with this.” Malls were closed, movie theatres and restaurants all closed. Small businesses were destroyed, and you could only shop at Walmart and Amazon for the most part. Nurses were dancing and turned into narcissistic “Heroes”. Celebrities made PSAs about us all being in this together and to stay home. I looked around and I did not know the parallel universe I was living in. This was the first time in my life that I had seen the whole world move together in lock step.
What I just explained to you is not even 10% of the crime to humanity that was placed upon us by the authoritarian legislation of covid 19, but this is not that article. However, I wanted to describe a little bit of what I saw that started prying my eyes open to the matrix that we really live in.
All of this led me to one question, “If the media can lie about something so serious what else have they been lying to me about?” No, I wasn’t so naïve that I thought we never receive the dreaded “disinformation” from the mainstream media, but this was different. This was a calculated narrative that was working towards a result. One that I would figure out later.
Well, with my eyes wide opened, I decided that this 2020 election would need some real researching before casting the “right vote” In 2016, I made a decision that would leave me feeling so shameful that I made a promise never to do it again. I voted for Hillary Clinton because everyone said it was the right thing to do. The only reason I don’t fully regret that decision is because it was part of my growth as an American citizen.
I decided to start watching the press briefings. Kayleigh McEnany should run for President at some point in her life. I watched these reporters grill that woman from left to right and every time they thought they had her she was ready with an answer and the fact to back it up.
I then watched a press briefing with Donald Trump talking about CRT. Donald Trump banned federal CRT training and of course he was called racist for it. They asked him why he doesn’t like to talk about history and replied, “Of course we must talk about history we should never forget our history, or we will be doomed to repeat it. I just don’t believe in any training that tells any race that they are inherently better than another race.”
Well, that sounds fair and constitutional. I was waiting for him to make a horrible statement like “Black people are mad about the past and trying to force ideology in the workplace, but I don’t want it.” He didn’t say that at all, and he explained it the same way that I would have.
Well, that wasn’t good enough for MSNBC. The next day one of my Facebook friend reposted their article with a headline that basically read Donald Trump tells Black Americans they will repeat history. She reposted this with the angry caption “we need to get this racist out of office right now!” I decided to help her out and tell her that this was not what he said, and that the media is wrong for using sensitive black issues for their own gain. Well with out any response to my comment she promptly unfriended me. I was laughing and confused at the same time. What did I say and was it worth all of this?
Well anyway I had set out on my quest to get information on what the Trump administration had been doing in its first term. I looked up old footage on YouTube and boy was I taken back. Under Donald Trump unemployment was at a record low, he removed many regulations which allowed small businesses to flourish, there was less black unemployment and more black own businesses, he was investing in urban areas to start businesses, our borders were the most secure they had been in a long time but most importantly we were energy independent which was the reason for our low gas prices.
Of course, I wasn’t looking at 2020 because by that point the “pandemic” was already wrecking our economy. I was shocked and not necessarily because I thought he wasn’t smart enough to achieve all of this. My surprise came from never hearing about this on the news.
Not to mention while looking through this footage I found so many videos that debunked the “racist” narrative. Especially the “good people on both sides.” Great job mainstream media on cutting the footage off right before he said “except white nationalist and neo nazis. We condemn them.” How many times do people need Donald Trump to reject “white supremacy”. There was a compilation of him doing this at least 10 times. All I could think was, “He is nicer than me because I would’ve been like no I did that already I’m not doing it again. Run the tape back from the last time I did that.”
So, if this so-called racist did all of this for America where black people benefitted instead of being sent back to Africa (that was a theme when he got elected), then surely Joe Biden has done more for black folk. I went digging and found out that Joe Biden ran on a policy of promising integration in schools with bussing and when he got into senate, he promptly voted against it while persuading the majority of senate to vote against it.
Joe Biden was proud of the crime bill that destroyed many black families. Let me be clear, you do the crime you do the time but life sentence for money laundering seems a bit egregious. I mean our elected officials aren’t in jail for life when they launder our tax dollars. Then hearing Joe Biden speak about black folk is enough to make you want to fight him. For me to say every example I would be writing for days but the “If you don’t know if you should vote for me then you aint black” sealed the deal for me.
By that point my mind was made up I was not voting for Joe Biden but was I really about to vote for Donald Trump? The sick thing about Biden’s statement is that there really is some twisted truth to it. Up to that point in my life, almost everything I did was about the black narrative. I wasn’t crazy enough not to eat Chic-Fil-a or anything like that but the thought of voting Republican and not only Republican, but Donald Trump still felt like selling out to the black race.
Can you imagine with all the facts that I had uncovered I still was having this personality disorder. That’s what it is, a personality disorder. No, not voting republican, but the mainstream overload of narratives that are forced down your throat of what black is supposed to be, is the personality disorder.
I didn’t realize it then, but I was breaking free from the shackles of left-wing ideology. Even if you don’t buy every ounce of leftist ideology, the little bit you do sign on to will be your master. Leftist ideology is like a religion. It takes over your thoughts and you don’t even realize it.
I sat down and really weighed out the pros and cons about this decision and there was no way around it. I had to cast that vote for Donald Trump in November. Especially after the debates, which were annoying to watch, but when I heard Joe Biden say he would end fossil fuels, I knew things would be bad in a Biden administration. I realized a vote for Biden would be a vote for false promises, high gas prices, open borders, mandated vaccines and sexual indoctrination of our children in schools. I was finally paying attention; my eyes were wide open and they would never close again.
One thing about me, if I am going to do something, I won’t move in the shadows. I went right on Facebook and told everyone that I was voting for Trump over Biden. I had a couple people really listen to my point of view, but most people demonized me for it. I was told I was too oppressed to vote for Trump. That was told to me by a white liberal woman. She said she gave up her white privilege for people like me.
She said she knew I was a strong black woman, but she had a better life than me and had a better education than me. I could not believe the racism I was reading. I didn’t have anything to prove to her, so I told her she was to take her insecure crazy self away from me. Black folk told me that I wanted to be white and if I voted for Trump, I would be responsible for all the white militias that would come out and kill black people. Absolutely delusional and let me say that even in my leftist days, I was never this crazy.
I can’t tell you how much scrutiny I received online but I didn’t care. On November 3rd, 2020, at 7am, I casted my vote for President Donald J. Trump and removed that last leftist shackle off my ankle. It was a freeing feeling.
By that point in my life, I really realized that I live in a country full of opportunities and the Lord had been providing for me even when I didn’t deserve it. I realized that collective thinking is poison and the only real way to help people is to live your life to your fullest potential and drop the knowledge that you learn along the way. You can’t make any change without factual knowledge first or else you will be marching to an aimless goal which is the real systemic racism that the left has achieved on the black community.
Today, I am not bitter towards any one race, and it feels silly to think that I ever walked around like that. Today, I deal with everyone on an individual basis and I have been open to meet some very cool people in these past two years. Today, I have such a hate of the lies and omission of truth that comes from mainstream media so much that I have my own YouTube channel which is devoted to the inconvenient truth. Today, I am grateful to God for the fight that He put up for my heart because the Lord is the only truth out here that reveals all lies.
So, in the end we know the story. Trump did not get a second term. I guess I should feel like my vote didn’t count but this was the first time I really was proud of my vote. This is the first time I stepped out on my own did the research and made a conscious decision which felt empowering.
Sadly, I was right about Biden’s policies as we are seeing them in live action. Everyone please pay attention because this is not all happening by coincidence. There are bills being written and laws put in place that is causing all the high prices and lack of safety. I won’t tell you who to vote for but pay attention to policies and what the candidate is or is not saying before you cast your vote.
Your vote does count and never forget that.